This is real!!

I can't sleep tonight.  I'm not sure why, but I am wide awake at 2:30 am. 

Of course, being wide awake and the only one up gives one time to think and all night I have been thinking about Peru and the fact that we will be leaving in just 16 days!  What seemed so far off is now so close.

I don't feel ready.  I question if I am really the RIGHT person to be going to this foreign place and telling these wonderful people whom I have never met and with whom I have no shared cultural identity, well, anything.  I'm just this middle-aged mom and wife from middle America who doesn't speak a word of Spanish and only ventured out of the US at 41 to pick up my youngest daughter in Africa.  Hardly mission worthy.

Sharing this trip with my daughter is going to be wonderful.  I am so excited to see how God uses her, and also how He changes and grows her through this.  Margo has always had this soft heart; she loves people and wants to serve and help and nurture.  And I know that He is also going to do something with our relationship as she moves on into her own life and my "mom" role changes from what it was as she was growing up to what it is now that she is a grown woman .  I know that we will have a whole new connection after this experience.

For whatever reason, He lead me to this trip and has placed me in this time for His purpose.  I don't know what it is yet, but I'm about to find out....for real!